Today is a good day...: One month down

As I get older, time seems to get continually faster. I feel it slipping away from me as much as I felt it drag on and on when I was younger. It's ironic how when we get to this stage in our lives we want time to slow down whereas when we were younger, we couldn't wait to grow up and for time to go faster. Silly kids.

Life is good. I'm happy with the way things are going. As always, there are things to be improved upon, but once again that will take care of itself with time and effort. Internally, emotionally, mentally...I'm doing wonderful. Like everyone, I have days where I would rather stay in bed and do nothing. I have days where I'm sad and feel as though I'm burdened with a weight I can't handle...but those days don't last forever. So, as a whole, things are going well. :)

I'm finally a permanent employee at Dyncorp which entitles me to all the benefits and time off and stuff that comes with it. Yes. This is me excited about that. I've been hoping and praying for this to happen since I was brought in as a contractor. I love the job and the people I work with are great people. They are so willing to help me figure out exactly what I'm doing...which is nice since half the time I have no idea what I'm doing!

I spend most of my time at home. I've definitely done a 180 from a few years ago. I don't like going places as much anymore. I'm so much more comfortable staying at home and being either with my family or by myself. I'm not exactly sure what is going on but, I don't necessarily mind it. On Fridays and Saturdays it bothers me, but most of the time, I don't care. Part of my problem I think is that I have such a hard time doing things other people like to do. I feel like I'm just over the hanging out and doing randomly silly things stage. I feel like there are so many other things I could be doing that I don't really want to do anything else. I think I'm also still rather self conscious and some of the things my friends want to do don't make me feel the most comfortable. I don't know.

I'm still trying to write and edit whenever I have time. It's kind of interesting how far this thing has come from when I started four and a half years ago. It's almost not even the same story. I like it though. I read over it and I can't help but be amazed that something that cool sounding came out of my brain. It's still quite an adventure for me. Even if no one else likes it, I am in love with my characters and my world and the adventures they're having. It's a rush and addicting to read it. I know that sounds conceited, but that's not how I mean it at all. I just know I was blessed with the ability to tell amazing stories and I'm still shocked over it.

I'm researching what it would take for me to get out of the house again. This time though, I need to rent a house. I have to take my dog with me and I can't do that in an apartment. Not real sure how I'm going to manage this, but I'm looking into it. Hopefully, I'll have something figured out before too much longer.

Well, that's about all that's going on. I have surrounded myself with good people who love me and care about me and that's enough for now. My family and friends are definitely worth keeping. :) I'll show you what I mean... Some of these pictures are kind of old, but they're all from last year.

This is my friend Lina, Ali, and my friend Jake. We went to take random pictures one night cause we were bored. Let me tell ya, interesting night!

Ali knows exactly how much I hate to have a nose touch me...so she buried hers in my hair!

Jake and Justin are two of my favorite guys. They are literally there for me even when I don't know that I need them yet.

Haha This photo is a year old, but we were all gettin ready to go play volleyball. We used to hang out all the time!

Me, Whitlee, Big Mike, and Josh. Josh and Whitlee are getting married in a week and a half! Crazy. Let me tell ya...

Josh, Whitlee, and me when we went on a random trip to Dallas. We were walking and I couldn't resist.

We took random pictures with a big group of people right after Remi got out of his MOS school and Ali, Whitlee, and I attacked him.

Ali took a dance class in the spring last year and I went to her recital. She definitely got big hugs and kisses afterwards.

We went bowling with my brother and his in-laws who also happen to be Whitlee's family. Whitlee stole my camera and just started taking pictures.

And now there is no doubt where Whitlee gets her sillies from. :) That's her dad.

This is mine and Ali's friend Jarom. We used to go to Firehouse Subs every Monday before FHE and decided to take pictures one day. This is the result.